My mother and I never had the loving bond that I observed between other mothers and daughters. I was never told that I was loved or that there was anything good about me. Instead, she told me that she wished she hadn’t had me and that I should have been a boy because they were much less trouble. From very early on it was clear that she favoured my two brothers and it was the source of a double standard that persisted into adulthood. It was a strange internalised misogyny that remains a mystery to me.
You have tremendous courage and insight - Bravo for not only surviving that lack of love and nurturance but coming out of itso strong your thoughtful analysis can be of help to others. Thank you.
I hope you are surrounded by people who appreciate, respect and love you, as you so richly deserve!