You have such a deep level of self awareness and a phenomenal capacity for self expression... It is so easy to become silenced and mute as the parentified child - you are so used to putting everyone's needs first, it becomes easier to continue n that way in the various permutations and spheres of life beyond the birth family dynamics. Thank you for writing this - it has heightened my own more numbed out /self awareness of surprisingly similar dynamics with my parents and siblings. I was always being called to be the hero, solving everyone's problems - while also resented for it!