Honestly it's hard to know where to begin with this litany of thoughts. I don't want to hurt your feelings by sounding disparaging, but really, much of what you say is untrue, does not mesh with facts, and is simply delusional.

May I recommend 'the Palestine Project, a publication here on Medium, as a good starting point - there are articles there in Hebrew, translated into English, and I have learnt a lot from them.